It’s funny how I still get nervous when I hear her voice on the phone :)
We get hurt periodically in our lives… is this a bad thing? People like to say it is; happiness and joy are good, while suffering and sadness are bad. But feelings don’t really work that way. What’s the purpose of suffering? Or is it just something that comes along with being a human being? Well it definitely looks that way, at least for me. But I also like to think that suffering ultimately leads to happiness… every scar in our lives makes up the map to our happiness. And although some people can see the goal clearly after a few superficial wounds, others take a little bit longer to notice where the X marking the spot is.
As for me, right now I feel like I’ve found my happiness, at least for now. Yeah, I’ve been heartbroken plenty of times throughout my short life, and that has taught me a lot, not only about myself but also about life. And yes, I still don’t know much about life (heck, I don’t know SHIT about it), but all the pain and suffering that I experienced in my life has lead me to this very moment in which I can honestly say I’M HAPPY AS FUCK. And I know it might be temporary, after all my happiness depends partially on someone else, and that terrifies me. But you know what… I don’t even care any more. I’ve learnt that worrying too much about things and focusing in your fears is wasting those moments of happiness. So I just enjoy everyday life with her, every single moment we spend together I cherish as if it was gonna be the last one (cliché as fuck, I know).
The point is… what society has defined as “bad” feelings, those are the feelings that teach you the most, and that ends up leading to those “good” feelings we all long for. And once you’re there, just enjoy the ride… live the present, and don’t worry too much about the future. And whatever you do, don’t look at the past, or at least not too often, only do it to look back at worse times and realise you’re better now.
The Cure - Friday I’m in Love
Altho it’s not friday….